The “Cravings” author posted her Marie Claire cover on Instagram Tuesday, with a raw extended caption about her emotional state during the shoot.

“I did this cover a couple days out of surgery, the one I was pregnant for all along. I was so so so scared the aggression on my body took a toll on the baby and just mentally came to terms with it ‘not working out’. It had never worked out naturally before so for sure it wouldn’t now!” she wrote.

“On top of that, I was struggling hard with some deep dark internet/real life days. I have lived a life begging for people to like me and think I’m cool and funny and their friend, and bam, it felt like everyone f—king hated me. I couldn’t do anything right, say anything right. I couldn’t leave cute comments on my friend’s pages knowing they’d be flooded with pizzagate insanity,” she continued.

Teigen, 34, admitted that she knows “there is so much worse in the world, but man, aside from the world sucking, my little world sucked too.

“Making people happy is my entire life. There is nothing else I wanna do. I guess I’ve come to terms with the fact not everyone is going to like me, and even though I still VERY MUCH DO NOT LIKE THAT, i can live with it. I love you guys a lot and have ohhhhh so appreciated the support the past few months. Now you know what it meant to me! Thank you @marieclairemag, for taking a risk and putting me on your cover – I know your comments bout to be A MESS. ❤️” she concluded.

The Victoria’s Secret model has had a tumultuous year. She’s been criticized by NYT food columnist Allison Roman, undergone breast reduction surgery and been bizarrely accused of being on board Jeffrey Epstein’s private jet.

She’s pregnant with her third child with husband John Legend.